On time, weaving, summer portals, and beyond knowing

Reveries

Jun 8

This morning, I found myself lying on the floor of my studio after a walk in the rain, looking up at the ceiling and feeling absolutely full to the brim with thoughts, some of which I decided to release into the void, and to share with you.

In this reverie, I share some thoughts inspired by the novel On the Calculation of Volume (Book I) by Solvej Balle, a story about a woman living the same day over and over again.1 The book has me thinking deeply about time, our relationship to the future, and the many ways we spend so much energy trying to understand and control what may or may not come next.

Beyond this, my thoughts spiral through the following questions, curiosities, and inspirations that thread together in this reverie:

What if time isn’t as fixed as we imagine it to be?
The strange freedom that comes from admitting we don’t actually understand very much at all.
The difference between curiosity and control.
A growing desire for a “summer portal” rooted in creativity, play, spaciousness, and self-expression.
The metaphor of weaving, and the possibility that our lives themselves are the tapestry, the artwork, we are weaving moment by moment.
Returning to the loom as a daily devotion, a practice of presence.
What it might mean to live each day as both the first and the last day.

Mostly, this is a wandering reflection about presence, creativity, uncertainty, and the invitation to meet life as it is unfolding right now.

Links to some of the things I mentioned in the recording:

On the Calculation of Volume (Book I) by Solvej Balle
My Summer Artist Residency 2026 Substack newsletter by Estee Zales that has expanded the idea of doing a kind of summer portal or summer self-led artist residency
The Artist Residency in Motherhood project by Lenka Clayton, which inspired Estee Zales article. I love how inspiration spirals out like a web connecting hearts and minds and sparking all kinds of creative expression and magic!