The Spiral Library

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An organized collection of musings, inspiration, creation, questions, answers, thoughts, feelings, and more.

Raina Jung 7/10/25 Raina Jung 7/10/25

Poem №024

The only way out
is though.

A tunnel of discomfort
lined with thorns of shame.

I’ve been here
a thousand times.

And it still makes me
want to hide.

It was never safe
to feel this much.

Stomach turns,
heart pounding.

It takes courage to pause
in the eye of the storm.

Breath slowly softens
the tightness in my chest.

This is me practicing a new way
of being with what’s present
and caring for my whole self.

Raina Jung 7/9/25 Raina Jung 7/9/25

Poem №023

The sky is a perfect blue
Punctuated by white puffy clouds
The mountains rise like giants
Watching over the valley
We gathered wildflowers
And brought them to our first home
We walked through the forests
And filled our lungs with healing

My heart aches to say goodbye
This place holds a piece of me
And so many other parts of me don’t belong here
I don’t know how to wrap my whole self up
I don’t know how to hold the whole thing
And maybe that’s okay

But my heart aches
And I’m not used to staying open to the ache
I’m not used to staying when I could run
Or unraveling when I could numb

So I turn forward the blue sky
And I drive towards the mountains
And I’ll sit with the wildflowers
And I’ll breathe another breath
And I’ll let the ache take me with it
And maybe there I’ll touch the wholeness
Of the thing I’m so afraid to let go of

Raina Jung 7/4/25 Raina Jung 7/4/25

Poem №018

Please understand
I tried to free you
From your suffering
I really did

With every smile
Each apology for the things
You said I did
In every elaborate gift
That was never enough
In all the ways I tried to be
What I thought
You thought perfect was

I tried to love you
Into loving yourself

But it turns out
That’s not how it works

And ultimately
To be anything for you
I’d first have to save
The only life I could save

I’d have to learn
To love myself
The way I tried so hard
To love you

Unconditionally
And with all my heart and soul.