365 Poems
A poem a day for a year.
Today I am...
Full of a heaviness
Made of a thousand
Questions
And the rawness of
Grief.
They found
A tiny bird’s egg
Abandoned in a nest
At the base
Of a thorn bush.
She cried
For the life
Caught in the shell.
She cried
For the mother
Who left.
And she cried
For the part in her
That saw itself
In both.
We drove to the seashore
and spent the day playing in the sand.
We stayed until the sun went down
and drove home past the wildflowers.
They fell asleep in the backseat.
Sun-kissed cheeks, full hearts.
Happy, grateful, more please
When I am soft
Squishy
Open raw
I am movable
Adaptable
Responsive
Connected.
When I am hard
Armored
Defensive
I am rigid
Stuck
Reactive
Disconnected.
Sort is vulnerable
Heart wide open
Feel it all.
Hard is separate
False control
Numb to truth.
Soft is love.
Hard is fear.
They taught us to fear
But we were made to love
Made of love.
Love is soft
Soft is strong
Stronger than fear
I am soft.
It’s painful
To be reminded
That I could lose
The flesh and bone
Of you
In an unforgiving
Unimaginable
Instant.
That all of this
Is fleeting.
That one day
My arms could reach
For the comfort of you
And find only
Empty space
Where you once lay
Soft and full
My whole world
Stretched out
Beside me.
It isn’t fair
That love requires
Facing
The most
Unimaginable
Heartbreak.
To love
Heart wide-open
Is to give
The wholeness of self
To what could be,
Will be,
Lost.
So, I look
Into you
Now
In this fleeting
Present moment
Hanging by a thread
In mid-air
Heart wide-open.
And I find
The place
In you
Beyond flesh and bone
And there
I plant my love
In the space
Never ends.
And I pray
That when we lose
The flesh and bone
Of us
That the seed
Of our love
Will carry on
In the infinity
Of space
That exists
Beyond our
Flesh and bone.
I found you
in a desert flower
made of paper and paint
high up in the blue sky.
Upon a crumbling world
something deep in me
recognized something in you.
Your eyes
took me home.
Unconditional love
at first sight.
I had no idea
how far I’d fallen
until my heart
escaped my chest.
Entirely exposed
under the night sky.
We were written
in the stars
and grew up together.
Now we wake up
wrapped in one another.
And we’re growing up
all over again.
Heart companions.
A fairy tale
lived in layers.
We were standing on the edge.
An abyss before us.
Our whole lives laid out on the earth.
No turning back
An inevitable end.
We had a choice:
To die before our time
Or abandon the illusion
Live into the moment
Embody the present.
We chose to live
And became an ocean
Expanding beyond everything.
And the end
Became the beginning
And we were free at last.
She moved so fast
A bolt of lightning
I couldn’t understand.
I hid you deep
To numb the pain
And there you stayed.
Decades later
You’re crying out:
Bring me home again.