Poem №086

A swelling of saltwater
behind the eyes.

An ache
that makes no sense
under this kind of warm
sunlight.

It hurts so much.

How can you trust the light,
when you’ve survived so long
in the darkness of fear?

A thing
that cannot exist
without its counter part,
does not stay
long enough
to provide
the kind of trust
you’ll need
to feel truly safe.

But is it really the light,
the joy,
the happiness,
the good,
that asks for your trust?

Where then,
do we place our trust?
Where then,
do we find the warm embrace
of safety?

What remains beyond change?
What lasts
when the dark clouds return?

Find the light within you.

You may not feel it
or see it now,
but it is there,
carrying you from
moment to moment,
incarnation to incarnation.

Place your trust
in that light,
become intimate
with it’s unwavering,
unconditional,
inner warmth.

Let it guide you
from the inside out,
even in the darkest of times,
through saltwater tears,
heartbreaking grief,
the too good to be true
ache of sunlight
on your soft face.

This place in you
exists beyond
all duality,
it is the stardust
we came from,
the home we return to,
the only place
you’ll ever locate
true safety.